went for top 28 spore idol theatre show ytd at mediacorp. im sooo addicted to their singing. i love listening to ppl sing! :):)! oh! most impt of all, finally cam-whored with ruikun, marcus, kwang wei, yi chang and fellow producers! *GRINS! oh. and we shall meet up someday yea? leading a busy yet fulfilling life right now which i totally enjoy to the core. mi life rawks! if only mi clique were here with mi. *pouts.

apart from missing mi clique, pearly and yana, im happily enjoying school now with smth to laugh at every single day. *grins.

first wk of sch. not so bad. mi lecturers are rather fine. though feature writing lecturer a bit :X, but anyhow shes still better than who we had for news writing. and still, rajan rawks. we had a wonderful class today. realli how sweet of him to do such a thing. oh, ya. had lunch with garyson, fiona and her fellow dtrm freshies today. they're cute. as juniors. :). and fiona says i shld run a matchmaking company for wad i did today. *winks. ;). working tml from 11am to 7pm. im darn tired from all the walking mi n fiona did today. i still have 40+ pages of film history to read b4 monday's lesson as well as to watch citizen kane(and 4 more dvds i borrowed from both sb lib and national lib). i'll have to do them on sunday. :X. i seriously need a good rest tonite.

not so early in the morning was taking the train to sp and suddenly i tot abt mi frenz. bee fang, wei ting, zoe, li yun, pearly and yana. juz saw bf with adeline ytd at dover mrt when i was taking the train with angela. though didnt go over coz didnt wan any like awkwardness coz they dunno angela and angela didnt know them too, kinda felt that the close-ness between us is still there. some time ago felt tat we were drifting apart. like one whole hols had passed and we still didnt meet up. didnt talk most of the times online coz either of us is busy or away doing our own stuffs. but till ytd, then i realised that the feeling is still the same. and it struck mi that mani mani times, even if we didnt meet, didnt talk for a long time, if the feeling is true, it will not change. i guess this applies to all kinda relationships? if the feeling is true, no matter how long it takes, feelings will still remain the same. mani mani frenz come and go, but i guess mi clique, pearly and yana are mi true frenz and im realli thankful for that. like, went thru sooooo mani things together, cried, laughed and joked lotsa together. realli realli missed those zhonghua days we had, but we gotta keep moving on and im sure better days are ahead of us. being the bridesmaid of each other's weddings, travelling overseas with our husbands and kids and maybe when our kids grow up, one's kids will fall in love with another's kids and get married. lols! and tada we become relatives. lols. realli tot very very far. but anyhow, the thing is, i realli love these silly frenz of mine. :). sheesh! im getting mushy!! but, to these frenz: things hadnt been going exactly well for us (i think except for bf and pearly), and come to think abt it, i realli believed that time can prove everything, including a person's character and worth. though itz easier said than done, we mite not be able to do it now, but sooner or later, we'll be able to get completely over those tutus. late in the middle of the nite, it almost feels as if u're alone but u're not k? no matter wad, we'll always be behind each other and supporting each other. don let it continue to be a burden to u for too long a time. don give up on a whole forest because of 1 tree. don give up on wad u used to believe in because of 1 single person. theres still something more worthwhile in life to look forward to (like the cutie mi!! *grins). these are all words we've always heard b4 and probably got sick of listening to. but maybe we can take 1 step backwards and we'll see a clearer picture? :). for wadever stuffs, u'll have MI by ur side!!

i think the old mi is coming back. im becoming more normal and rational and know wads right and wads wrong. and im able to give advice le. aha! YAY! no matter wad, the rain will stop someday. it cant always be a rainy day. :).

i shall be a gd lil girl in school this sem during com lab lessons. no more playing mani mani games (play 1 or 2 will do) or oogling at mi chang chang on youtube and totally melting coz of him (if u know wad i did last sem u'll faint. i was watching this video on mi blog over youtube and i pause the video when hez abt to kiss the girl and the scene was so funny that i laughed so hard till i cried and im still laughing then. try it!! :) then i shall stop ponning so mani tutorials and lectures esp. feature writing which ive a bad feeling abt it. i think these are enough for the i-shall-not-dos for this year coz if i continuing saying somemore, all would be juz plain talk. and no oogling at mi chang chang doesnt mean that i don go crazie over him. im already crazie over him whether i see him anot. the onli cure for it is probably onli.. haha. hees! :p:p.

first day of sch was zzz... started school at 9, the supposedly 2 hr tutorial ended like 1 hr earlier, and so we had like 4 hrs of break. the whole class headed for town and we went to crystal jade for brunch. after tat some of the girls went to zara and i got a cheap striped top from there! i saw some other tops i like too! shall shop there once i get mi pay. :). then went back to school for rajan's lesson. had specialist dip. class whereby outta 20 ppl, 9 came from mi class. and seriously i had no idea till then tat mi lessons for the next 1 and a half years end at 6 at the very least for every single monday and tuesday. and the workload is no kidding man. juz on the very first day we had to read 22 pages of history of film n tv to prepare for the next lesson (which was today). :X. and today, the second day of school, woke up early in order to be punctual for ms kwa's first lecture. met up with garyson at bishan mrt and we took the train to school but was still slightly late for the lecture while waiting for angela. spent our wonderful 3 hours of break in guild house playing the arcade games. ended the day with specialist dip. lesson again. it wasnt as bad as we tot. we watched cinema paradiso which ive watched the first half b4 in primary 5 when i-forgot-who's-the-teacher showed it to us! actualli ive not much idea wad im blabbering abt in here coz im so hungry and slpy. so gonna slp early tonite. 8am lesson tml again. zzz..

worked in sentosa today again! was working with jewel for a while. tried to dig out stuffs from her abt tat shawn marcus. lols! i'll remember his name. then suriya came for a while. then dennis relieved her. tat ai de. he and alan darn funnie lahs. but both of them gang up bully mi can. but they are fun and nice ppl lahs. sch reopen tml! wonder how the freshies look like! lols!

fine. if tats wad time or fate or wadever has been trying to prove to mi all these while, fine. i admit it alrite? itz karma maybe. but im not going to admit defeat. never. ive no choice.

talking to yana over msn now. abt the past. and i was reading mi posts in the past. in 2004 december. then i realised, i hadn't realli changed much since then. im still the old mi u know. if theres any pain im feeling, i wont say it out. the one still silently standing in the corner observing everything and even if theres wishes from mi heart, i'll keep them inside. i don believe that everything has to be said out, particularly wishes and good deeds. i still don like to say out all mi problems and stuffs im thinking abt so as not to impose to much trouble for others. itz still the same old person i wanna confront whenever i need advice, probs or juz things to say. mi principles are still the same. im still as egoistic as ever. i haven change much since then i realised. there are juz more things i don understand and i think itz not impt whether anot i do understand them. i still have mood swings every now and then and im kinda used to it. like now.

went to mediacorp for logging for tapes once again. at first was fine, i behaved like a lil peeping tom viewing that guy with black motorazr phone on the tapes. it was purely coincidental can, not that i purposely went to view him, but coz of work i had to re-watch the tapes and so i viewed him. raahhh!! i procrastinate too much. :(. anyhow, after tat we were freaking tired and our mood was super bad. i don even feel like talking. :X. but now im okie la. nice edwin offered mi and faye a ride to amk mrt, though itz juz mrt and not mi hs, but hez nice enough already la. first time sitting in someone's car (okay, though itz his family car) on the way home, the feeling is a lil scary, but yea. haha. :). i need a break and some time for miself!

freaking tired. well, today is mi 5th day of work and outta 5 days of work, i was late for 3 days, 1 min earlier for 1 day, half an hour earlier for the first day. was doing pr today. at first i realli realli hated pr, itz super tiring. but today not so already. was working with yani at first. then after mi break dennis came and yani went home coz of rashes. then was teasing dennis half the time. anyhow, then went home with ruby and alan. they are darn funny! i kept laughing non-stop. especially ruby. lols. :P:P. then went to marina square to visit pearly who is working at andersen's ice cream. met cliff, shi min and jun jie on the way. then when finding mi way there, met elaine and alex. so pearly was like so xing fu so mani ppl go visit her on her second day of work. oh! irvin is working there too. so i was eating mi single fondue realli slowly to wait for pearly for her break. n i simply love fondues! the chocolate!! YUMS!! oh, did i mention. pearly was touched that i went to visit her alone coz mal n cj couldnt make it, ben n eric didnt wan to. :). i was thinking wad kinda fren m i if juz becoz no one go with mi then i don visit pearly n support her in her work. :). but im waiting for her to make fondue for mi!! wahahha. i love fondues, fondues n fondues! yea. pearly is lucky today. she actualli got like 7 bucks of tips from 1 family and $2.50 from elaine=$9.50! woo! haha. jia you girl! :)

i feel like piercing mi ear. the 2nd ear hole.

4th round of audition. also, the last day of work for mi. well, erms, an incident happened. i don wish to say it here. so, yea. im too embarassed to say it here la. but apart from that, nth much happened. the contestants were slping and so we did too, for a while. come to think abt it, i think i procrastinate too much. if not i would have known the guy with black motorazr phone. but itz okie la, nvm. juz wanted to be frenz with him and juz that in the first place. but yea, it made mi realise that i realli procrastinate too much. and, i noticed that majority of the contestants are smokers, even the decent-looking ones. issit that a huge population in spore is smoking now? i was telling pearly if thats the case, i think mi bf would be a smoker too. then she said nope. miracle. :). haha. im feeling a lil outta place now. apart from treating the day as if the nite n vice versa, i kinda miss the feeling of working for si. u know, like, after 2 nitez of going out at nite and reaching mediacorp, i feel that smth is missing. i need to rest well and have enough slp and hope i don get sick. actualli i already am, im coughing a bit badly. but yea, apart from that, nth else i hope. i don have a day which im free at all. so, yea. erms, im feeling slpy and blur at 7pm now. argh.

"no matter how i fight it, can't deny it, just can't let you go." :) silly mi.

spore idol third audition ytd nite, early morning of today. im working the midnite shift and so i reported to work at 10p.m. guess wad. the guy with black motorazr phone had already been kicked out and i didnt even get to see 1 look of him. he went home b4 i came. i was quite sad. like, i missed the third guy i wanna know in mi entire life again. yes, yet again. im super emo for the rest of the nite over it. marcus, kwang wei and faye witnessed the emo-mi. i kept whining. fate. then started work. was attached to iggy to do logging for a while. the first boys grp we went to shoot was not bad, but i feel that someone was at disadvantage becoz the song the 'leader' kinda chose wasnt the song for him to show his strengths in his voice. and i was looking at that someone singing. and he happened to be looking at mi when hez singing a part of it too. guess wad. i totally melted. itz mi weakest point. yep, ive melted a lil b4 in the previous rounds of auditions, but itz not as bad as this time round becoz when they sang, they didn't look at mi. and that someone did. i was pai seh that im melting when he was juz merely looking at mi when he sang it. itz "i still..." by bsb. saying how much the guy still needs the girl in his life. even iggy said "ai, hez singing to u leh.." then i said no la and didnt dare to look at them sing again. wads more funny is that when i smsed kwang wei, marcus and faye and told them abt it, kwang wei and marcus tot wad i meant by 'i melt' is that i couldnt ta han the nite anymore. LOLS!! haha. then after that went to shoot other grps too, i think the guys are stronger than the girls. the spirit for the guys are there, but not the girls. but on the whole, they sang quite well. i mean, 'idols' wad. and then arnd 4a.m. the crew went to rest and we had our own dv cams to shoot. some of the contestants were still not aslp yet. and i tried so hard to keep miself awake by walking arnd finding interesting things to shoot. all the way till 7a.m. then headed back to mediacorp and had breakfast and tonite is mi last nite there again. am still looking forward to it and see who got in.

work was quite fun and boring ytd. i totally thought that i was working at 4pm and went off happily to sp to hand in mi specialist dip form thinking that i'll finally be early for mi work for once after being late for 2 whole days. then i met farah coincidentally in the admissions office and she asked mi why i was there at 2.30pm when im supposed to be on the way to work. she told mi i was working at 3pm, not 4pm. and blur mi rushed down immediately taking a cab from sp to harbourfront mrt. i punched mi card at 2.59pm. lucky mi. then when i reported to work, then i knew that a guy was waiting for kamani at the carpark for her to finish her work so that they can go out together. and they barely met like hours ago? lols. the guy wasnt good-looking or anything. then jewel accompanied kamani to tell the guy that shes going back home after work. guess wad the guy said. "okie, then make tml free. i'll call u tonite to make sure u are free tml." lols. yes, kamani gave her no. to him when they were talking when they juz met. the situation was funny. i was watching the 'show'. lols. then jewel and kamani left, i worked with steven like till 11pm. oh, this i forgot to say. lols. steven told mi that he finds it a pity that i didnt take part in campus superstar. lols!! haha. then at arnd 6+ we were slacking already. was talking to lun han and hez so lame! even in front of guests. then he left at 7pm. then later the guy i think his name is dennis was released from work came and talked for a while b4 the bus back to harbourfront mrt. then left mi and steven at tc and info counter and i was darn bored. 11pm came and i finalli could go to the toilet at harbourfront mrt becoz im afraid to go to the toilet at sentosa alone when itz dark. sentosa's fun, with the ppl working there. :). i juz love the feeling when the bus goes from harbourfront mrt to sentosa. it'll cross over the sea and everytime i look over, i feel as if im going travelling freely. the feeling is great. :).

wonder if there are any couples who juz got attached today. wonder if there are, how was the situation like.

2 years ago on this day, i didnt thought of how far we could go. a year back was the first family dinner in mi life ever. he muz have forgotten this day. becoz im no longer the girl in his heart. itz another girl that hez thinking of all day and nite..

sentosa work today. 7.30a.m. to 3.30p.m. 4 words: tired, slpy, sore throat. i think ive said "hi sir/madam. thank you. have a nice day." more than 700 times today. how come ppl don ever get sick of coming to sentosa arh? lols. juz another random tot. oh ya! i almost forgot to mention this. farah and i saw Shawn Hetcher and Simon today! if siti, halimah and clarise were here they would drool over them like mad. if onli siti is still with us in sp. anyhow, tml work: 4p.m. to 11p.m. reach home at 12a.m. spore idol next day. :). i realli cant wait for spore idol to come. it like.. YIPPEEE!! spore idol airs on 21st may, see how significant and auspicious that day is? *grins.

i love j.c. u love j.t. :) *grins. im craziee over j.c. if hez someone who is around mi now, i'll fall in love with him with no hesitation. totally no hesitation. and i shall be that girl whos chasing him! aha. talk abt ego and pride. :) sometimes i wish i could be like somebody and behaves and act the same way. but too bad, im sharon lim and i cant be anyone else. shrugs. went out with 4-outta-5 of clique today. bee fang cldnt make it. eh, was super late to meet zoe first. then yun n wt met up with us later when we watch movie. 2 becomes 1. ending a bit abrupt though. :X. then went to shop shop. :P:P. i wanted to buy a brown belt and rubber bands. in the end couldnt find any that i realli like, theres this brown one i saw though, still considering whether to buy it anot. and aha! took LOTSA photos. camera-whoring. lols! took like 20 over pics b4 we get 1 nice group photo one. *grins. i juz simply love the 4 of them! and pearly and yana too! haha. and silly yun was worried for mi. but don worrie girl, im okie. juz too mani scandals. due to mi wonderful poly frenz hor. but love life, itz all wad i told u guys. and tats it. ;). silly girl, don worrie abt mi lahs. im fine and i will be. :). im sharon lim. no matter how tough the going gets, i'll endure it. :). mi dear clique, lets meet again for kbox, mahjong and 21st may k! haha!!

Sharon Lim -- greedy but easily contented; rational but impulsive; speak a lot but quiet; believe in things completely but have doubts running through the mind; think a lot but choose not to think at all; simple but complicated. to put it simply, im a total contradictory.
BUT I LOVE SMILING! :).

.andrew.
.andri.
.angela.
.bee fang.
.cheng wei.
.clarise.
.edwin.
.eric.
.farah.
.faye.
.felix.
.hong jin.
.hui qing.
.izyana.
.jason.
.jasmine.
.juan hui.
.kevin.
.kinho.
.kwang wei.
.li xuan.
.li yun.
.malcolm.
.marcus.
.nurul.
.pearly.
.stella.
.timothy.
.ting xuan.
.yanda.
.ying xia.
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